tears.

because of you i never stray too far from the sidewalk.
because of you i've learned to play on the safe side so i don't get caught.
because of you i find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me.
because of you, i am afraid.

but you'll never read this. so i'll say it, pretending you might. i don't want you back. i don't even want you to exist. you were a lie, just like the lies that you told me. it was only 4 years of my life. i'll make up for them in no time.

still documenting the stages. i'm at a cross between "extreme grief" and "anger" now. enjoy. i hear there are still 3 stages to come. coming next: rationalization.